So yesterday I missed a day and kind of blew my goal of posting to this blog every day this year. I remain very depressed and struggling just to get through each day. The first good news is that Ron and I did get paid today, so we are not broke. The second bit of good news is that I have an appointment to see my doctor tomorrow morning and hope that by this time tomorrow I will be back on my insulin and pills and on my way to feeling better again.
I find myself hoping that I am this week truly bottoming out in this depression. Not only did I not post anything in this blog yesterday, I have also for two or three days now just blown off putting up the #definethis word of the day. I kind of think that if the only reason anyone played at all was because I offered an eaves reward for doing so, then they don’t really see any value in it and I just don’t feel as though I have the emotional energy to promote a game that no one else gives a shit about.
Since I have been oh so down I just haven’t had it in me to do lots of online socializing and my Empire Avenue share price continues to tank and I just can’t care about it right now. I do know that I have real friends who do care about me, and I do cherish them very much. I also know that sooner or later this depression will pass and I will get manic again. When I have all that manic energy and enthusiasm, I’m sure I will get back into online socializing and my scores and share price will recover. I will be grateful to all of my shareholders who just hang on and wait for that day to come. And I resolve that I will not waste one iota of energy worrying about any who don’t.